From shadow to light and from light to shadow
Because shadow needs light, and light needs shadow.
As a performer, you are asked to shine on stage, and that's fabulous.
Stage has this magic to permit you, after long hard work, to make you shine.
It's strong and powerful, transcendantal and magic. It's being one with your soul, body and the audience... Yes, very close to an orgasm but in a completely different dimension...
Being able to do that means being really connected to your art and your technique. Which is asking a very intense amount of energy and emotions.
So everytime you shine, it can happen to go back to the shadows. Being on stage is beautiful but it's also exhausting.
It happened to me to feel guilty after amazing shows to be in a dark place the day after. It actually happened a lot. I wasn't able to explain or to assume it. " I should always be happy living my dream" "it's because i'm not strong enough for this job" "others are or seem always happy". Again i guess social medias are not really helping. I mentioned it on one of my last post about body shape "how you're supposed to look like", but it also work on "how you're supposed to feel"... social medias are really not healthy when you start to compare to each other. It's really nice when it permits you to connect with others, but i think we should be aware when it's starts to actually disconnect to ourselves. Always be aware that almost everyone is posting "the best of themselves" and that therefore that's not reality :)
Lately i finally started to talk about my feeling of going in the "shadows" after intensive weeks of shows to other performers and friends, and they all insured me that it's very "normal". Especially when you have to travel a lot, that you can't really recover with good sleep all the time, and also when you're a sensible person. And well lots of artists are, i guess, sensible people. It can sound stupid but really...i forgot that. And so now, i'm trying to find my way ro recharge my batteries when the stage drained me too much. Closer to the nature and taking care, pampering myself...
Sharing this made me feel much better, and also made me able to embrace and assume more "the shadow" side of my performing path. That's why i thought that it could be a good idea to share this here, with my weird english full of mistakes!
Because your shadow needs your light and your light needs your shadow, as a balance...so embrace it!!!
Lou on the Rocks